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July 5th, 2009
the sun is cutting up the clouds
and I can’t stay awake
keep drifting in and out
as the room settles thick to the floor
I turn around
I turn over
I’m only alive once but i’m both right now

and this spinning out of sight is
a cloud from my mind
a dark wall above the ground
with debris where my eyes should be
it knows no tact
it knows no mercy
the sirens sound in the background for me

and in my own way I break from the scene
I’m only half of what I dream myself away from
and there’s a flashing screen with your face on a map in the clouds and your name’s in the air
and I’m not there and your names in the air
spiral down to the ground

Original Demo

Recording in progress:

The Delivery Driver is Watching You Hibernate.

January 4th, 2009

Once I realized that it was inevitable for me to spend another winter in Minnesota, I decided that I was going to try and remain mobile and active once the cold weather hit (i.e. not subject to the hibernation habits of typical Minnesotans).  Not that I was particularly mobile and active in the summer, but regardless, being out and about is more important in the winter.  Especially given the fact that I’m already prone to depression.  And that my attempts to seek out relationships have thus far amounted to disappointment, to say the least.  Point being: I can’t afford an entire season by myself.

So I find myself looking for shows on the internet when I get off work.  I’m calling all of my friends and asking what their plans are.  I’m reading books at bars.  I’m going bowling by myself.  It’s a lot of work.

One thing that helps, though (and I cringe when I say this) is my job.  I drive pizza around.  I don’t have to dread going out.  I’m already out.  People I know want to stay inside rather then brave the weather to try to get somewhere.  I’ve been in the weather all day.   Being in a cozy bar watching a band sounds pretty good after spending 10 hours driving the same slushy streets over and over.

I go home, have a beer and change my jeans, and I’m ready to go do something.  I get down to my car and it’s still warm.  I don’t ever work before 11 am, so it’s pretty hard for me to get too excessive, since anywhere I would go closes by 2 am.

It’s all relative.  So far this has been the best winter ever, just because I haven’t really had time to dwell on how much it sucks.

Bullet Points for No Good Reason

October 27th, 2008
  • I bought a drum machine and I’ve been making little compositions based on distorted keyboards with it.
  • I’m looking out my window at the cold sunset over 35W.
  • Halloween is almost here, meaning November is around the corner and we can all start thinking of Minnesota in the way we’re supposed to.
  • Ever since I turned 30 things have been so much better.
  • A light bulb from one of my various lamps exploded for some reason the other day.  Today I hit a bulb in the light fixture on my ceiling with my guitar.
  • I bought groceries and everntually I’m going to combine the following: spaghetti noodles, spinach, chorizo, barbeque sauce.
  • I found my sweaters.
  • I’ve had Fleet Foxes’ “White Winter Hymnal” stuck in my head all day.
  • I hit the two year point of not smoking.  I almost forgot about that, which is good.