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The Delivery Driver is Watching You Hibernate.

January 4th, 2009

Once I realized that it was inevitable for me to spend another winter in Minnesota, I decided that I was going to try and remain mobile and active once the cold weather hit (i.e. not subject to the hibernation habits of typical Minnesotans).  Not that I was particularly mobile and active in the summer, but regardless, being out and about is more important in the winter.  Especially given the fact that I’m already prone to depression.  And that my attempts to seek out relationships have thus far amounted to disappointment, to say the least.  Point being: I can’t afford an entire season by myself.

So I find myself looking for shows on the internet when I get off work.  I’m calling all of my friends and asking what their plans are.  I’m reading books at bars.  I’m going bowling by myself.  It’s a lot of work.

One thing that helps, though (and I cringe when I say this) is my job.  I drive pizza around.  I don’t have to dread going out.  I’m already out.  People I know want to stay inside rather then brave the weather to try to get somewhere.  I’ve been in the weather all day.   Being in a cozy bar watching a band sounds pretty good after spending 10 hours driving the same slushy streets over and over.

I go home, have a beer and change my jeans, and I’m ready to go do something.  I get down to my car and it’s still warm.  I don’t ever work before 11 am, so it’s pretty hard for me to get too excessive, since anywhere I would go closes by 2 am.

It’s all relative.  So far this has been the best winter ever, just because I haven’t really had time to dwell on how much it sucks.

Bullet Points for No Good Reason

October 27th, 2008
  • I bought a drum machine and I’ve been making little compositions based on distorted keyboards with it.
  • I’m looking out my window at the cold sunset over 35W.
  • Halloween is almost here, meaning November is around the corner and we can all start thinking of Minnesota in the way we’re supposed to.
  • Ever since I turned 30 things have been so much better.
  • A light bulb from one of my various lamps exploded for some reason the other day.  Today I hit a bulb in the light fixture on my ceiling with my guitar.
  • I bought groceries and everntually I’m going to combine the following: spaghetti noodles, spinach, chorizo, barbeque sauce.
  • I found my sweaters.
  • I’ve had Fleet Foxes’ “White Winter Hymnal” stuck in my head all day.
  • I hit the two year point of not smoking.  I almost forgot about that, which is good.

Give MN Back to Canada

June 30th, 2008
temperature falls
the cold and crispy clean
breathing in what’s left
of the air

brains freeze to my sleep
I crystallize
make no mistake, we’re far away

chemicals die
this has to be the same
a restless breaking-free
of a fantasy

sounds don’t put up a fight
I just don’t know what else to say

The Coldest Day of the Year

May 1st, 2008
I can’t help but take this the wrong way
if the wrong way is mine to take
you got me on salvaged time
spin me around
all that I can think lately
is that I just need time to escape
what good’s that gonna do
just to come back to you?

I had a dream the world could see me
I had it all the time
and now it’s on my mind
can’t let it go
put myself in tow

we shut ourselves in for the winter
made some careful space in the start
and then threw it away

now I’ve got you in my head
that’s not where you want to be
just trust me please
the coldest day of the year
you can’t disappear